A New Sweet Season

On Mother’s Day six years ago, I woke up and peed on a stick.  Justin and I quickly learned that baby #2 was on the way and that we mostly just have to look at one another and say “let’s have a baby” and we are pregnant.  I don’t take that for granted but I […]

Favorite Things Friday

In an effort to get back to blogging I thought it would be fun to share a few things I’m enjoying lately.  For the longest I rarely bought myself anything.  Any time I shopped, I did so with my children in mind and never focused on me.  Over the last several months I’ve made a […]

Through All of It

I open my dashboard and stare at the blank screen. Then I close it. The process repeats every few weeks. Writing has always been “it” for me.  I’ve kept some kind of journal for as long as I can remember.  I wrote online before “blog” was even a word.  But now it’s hard not to […]

on my bookshelf // July 2015

At the beginning of the year I set a goal to read 12 books during 2015.  Since having kids, I’ve rarely read books even though it is something I enjoy.  I’ve already surpassed my yearly goal and have almost 100 books on my Amazon wishlist that I can’t wait to dig into in the future.  […]

Catching Up

Once again, it’s been a while. I’m fairly certain I’ve started almost every blog post since Brynlee was born that way. So much has happened since I’ve truly updated though and it’s overwhelming so let’s go with bullet points, shall we? Brynlee is trach-free! She pulled her trach out at the end of January.  She […]

If She Only Knew.

One year ago this month, on May 16, 2014, my dad uttered the “C” word to me.  We had tip-toed around that word- cancer- and hoped for the best.  He had been sick and coughing for several months.  His doctor diagnosed him with allergies and told him his shortness of breath was normal.  It wasn’t […]

Dear New Trach Mommy,

Sweet mama, I never thought I would be able to write this post.  Everything was so scary and I felt desperate.  How would I ever get the hang of this trach-baby thing when every time I thought about it, I broke out into a sweat and my eyes teared up.  It was months before I […]

on grief and excavation

Grief is not a place. You can’t just pass through. It is a journey. One that is long and filled with ups and downs. Two weeks of good can feel instantly erased by the onset of another bout of pure, desperate grief. Of missing someone so much it hurts to breathe. The world continues spinning. […]

the year of letting go & stepping out

2014 was a year of letting go. letting go of this blog. letting go of our only steady income- Justin’s job. letting go of my plans for the future. letting go of my fears. letting go of my controlling ways, beginning to accept that I am not in control. letting go of my idea of […]

Like Wildfire, It Spread.

It’s 4:30AM and I woke up with this on my heart, swirling through my mind.  This is just a little glimpse of what it was like to watch Daddy fight small cell lung cancer. It was a Saturday.  Mom and I were going shopping.  I had mentioned to Justin that maybe since the baby was […]