Do you know how hard is it to blog with one hand? Yeah, it’s pretty difficult. Given that I seem to be nursing 30 hours a day, I haven’t been able to get a post up.
I finally decided that my supply had to be low. I have no idea how that could happen when I seriously nurse every single hour during the day, but it did. I started taking Fenugreek a little over 24 hours ago and I can already tell a difference. I cannot tell y’all how glad I am. I wanted a natural birth and I succeeded. I want to exclusively breastfeed and I am going to do everything I can to make sure that happens.
This exact same thing happened with Bryson, but I always assumed that it was my fault- I must have been doing something wrong. I was only able to nurse him for about 3 months and I supplemented the entire time. (I blame this on our nurse in the hospital who told my husband it would be fine to give our newborn a bottle when I had made it crystal clear I wanted to breastfeed.) So, this time around, I set out to do everything the “right” way. I have nursed on demand and because nursing is supply & demand- you’d think I would have been overflowing. That didn’t happen.
Thankfully, Bella has exclusively breastfed thus far. I have also been trying to incorporate a pumping session at least once a day, so that eventually, Justin will be able to take over for a few hours. She does sleep well at night- something that didn’t happen with Bryson until he was about 15 months old. I wonder if that is why she eats so much during the day- just so she can sleep for long stretches at night. She will only sleep with me though. As soon as I put her down, she wakes right up crying. That is the hardest part so far. She’ll sleep for an hour if she is in my arms with skin to skin contact.
I did manage to nurse her in our Ergo Baby Carrier and cook dinner one night this week. I am so thankful for my husband who has picked up my slack and cooked some great meals during the last 3 weeks. He has been wonderful all around really. He makes sure to spend time with Bryson every night. They usually go in the bedroom, plug the iPod into the speakers, and the dance, dance, dance. Bella and I will join them some nights. I hate feeling like I’m not giving him the one-on-one time, but at the point, it is truly impossible. As soon as my supply is established enough to pump enough bottles to last a few hours, we will be taking sometime for just Bryson and Mama. Until that time, I am so happy that Justin is seriously the sun and the moon to our little boy, so having his Dad’s full attention seems to be enough.
I have felt 100% since about 10 minutes after I gave birth. I have a ton of energy, so sitting on the couch and nursing all day is driving me insane. I want to be up and playing with Bryson and cleaning and cooking. I know that sounds crazy, but it’s true. I’m trying to remind myself this will not last long. My supply should be established sometime in the next few weeks and we’ll have a better routine. I’m constantly reminding myself how quickly this stage goes by and that I should breathe in every single moment that I get to snuggle up to my daughter’s head full of dark hair.